A few months ago I wrote somewhat cryptically about the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make. The background is that I was told in April that I would be made redundant at the end of the year. After looking around for work for a while, and finding nothing I got an email one day from a friend offering me a discussion about a possible job.
We met, we chatted, the job was discussed, and with a heavy heart – ok, with a huge wrench in my heart – I turned it down. It would have been fun, and something I could do well, and something I could get thoroughly absorbed in, but it wasn’t the dream of my heart. On top of which, God very clearly said ‘No’.
The dilemma was this – I was passing up the opportunity of a great job for…what? Nothing. No guarantee of any other option coming along. I had to trust God, and trust that the message I received was from God and not just my imagination, and hope and pray something else would come up.
I asked myself “Do I have the courage to take the harder, less clear, more challenging road?” and I answered “Yes”, and told you I’d be back in a few months to say “See what God has done”.
So what has He done?
Well, I applied for several jobs, and He got me an interview for one of them – at BUCKINGHAM PALACE!! It was wonderful – it took place in a room at the front of the Palace right above the famous balcony, and the Changing of the Guard began while I was in there. How cool is that?!!
I didn’t get the job, though having found out more about it I realised I wouldn’t really have enjoyed it anyway. So, timed ticked away, nothing else came through, and here we are at 31 December, my contract has been terminated and…what next?
Well, I am taking the plunge and trying my hand at being a freelance writer and copy-editor. They’re two things I like and am good at, and it seems like God is saying ‘give it a try’.
It’s scary. I’m single, living in central London with the rent to pay, food to buy, and very little guaranteed income in the months ahead, but God has brought me a few opportunities and contacts already, and seems to be opening doors, so I’m just going to keep pushing them and walking through to discover what’s on the other side.
I’ve got enough of a buffer to try it for 3 months and see what happens. If I love it and think I can make it work, I’ll keep going. If I hate it, or discover that it simply isn’t a viable way of paying the bills, well, I’ll see what God says to do next, and then do that.
2012 has been an amazing year. I never would have guessed 366 days ago what it had in store. It looks like 2013 is shaping up to be another roller coaster of a ride. I’d greatly value your prayers as I embark on this new adventure, and if you need anything written or edited, my rates are very reasonable!
[Seriously, if you do have contacts or opportunities for copy-writing, proofreading, editing or similar, do get in touch. Thanks!]
I hope you are able to look forward to the year ahead trusting that God’s hand will be with you in the lows as well as the highs. I know He’s always with me and will never forsake me, and the same goes for all who love and trust Him. It’s scary, but I’m ready to take the leap. Who’s with me?